Changes for the better?

Since my last post on having thoughts of taking a break from work, many things has happened in just 5 months. Technically, I’m married (still can’t sink in the fact after being single for 27 years) and i’m really thankful that the wedding went well and it’s finally over, one less thing to worry about. We have also collected the keys to our BTO flat, it’s in the progress of renovation, hopefully it will be ready by CNY.

Another good news i would like to announce…I’m going to be a mum soon too! We wanted a goat baby so we decided to try conceiving exactly 3 months before our wedding date as we calculated that if we were to try only after wedding, with 9 months of pregnancy, we only have 3 months to try conceiving in order to get a goat baby and it doesn’t help when my menses are irregular which comes on average 2 months once. Although the pregnancy was pre-planned in a way, however, we did not expect to hit the jackpot on our very first try!

Maybe i’ll write on how we found out about the pregnancy in another post. The first 3 months of pregnancy is literately nightmare for me, feeling nauseous and vomiting almost everyday. I had appetite for nothing, i slept most of the time and feeling really weak. As a result of this, i took frequent MCs and leaves from work which i felt really guilty and stressed especially when i was just tasked to take over the whole department.

That period was crucial since it was reaching year end and as department head, I was responsible to plan for the department’s roadmap for 2015, KPIs, budget, headcount etc. Endless back to back meetings. I’m lucky and blessed to have competent managers whom i can rely on to get things done and with them, i managed to tied through the difficult period, although i believe i will perform better with better health conditions.

With the ever fast changing pace of the company and with deteriorating health conditions due to pregnancy symptom such as tiredness, i swear after a full day of work i’m mentally and physically drained. There are times where i felt 有心无力 and i get disappointed with myself for the deteriorating performance by which i do not meet my own expectations. 过得了别人但过不了自己这关。

Hubby mentioned about not being too stressed during pregnancy as it will affect the baby which both of us agreed that i should take a break. We had multiple talks, discussions and persuasions over this issue for few weeks and i’m glad to have a hubby who is able to understand, help me list out and analyze the situation clearly, assess our finance and points out the direction i should take, which is to resign from the company, but he lets me make the ultimate decision.

It’s really hard for me to make a decision and I get pissed with myself for being flicker minding, (just blame it on the pregnancy hormones) especially being in the company for 8 years with counts of personal achievements and milestones achieved together with the team but at the same time, i believe it is a sooner or later decision where it is time for me to go and get new life experiences, be it personal life or professional life. I have been deciding back and forth on this issue literately everyday – never came across anyone having so much difficulties resigning from a job.

Getting frustrated with myself from the daily ding-dongs, I told myself that i need to make a decision and never go back in circles again. Regardless of whether i will regret making the wrong choice, i need to make a decision to move on. After much weighing, I made the decision of tendering my resignation. I think i will need to write another post so to remind myself on the list of factors which results in my decision at that moment and not regret the choice i made. Keeping my fingers crossed for now.

Take a break?

Honestly, i have been hovering around this thinking recently a lot, like really A LOT.

Have been working in the same company for almost 8 years, i have definitely seen the company grow –  from a start-up to SME and now a MNC. The company has also seen me grow as a person and as a profession – from the long golden hair, loud Avril Lavigne -Girlfriend ringtone with short mini skirts ah lian to short dark toned hair, silent ringtone with decent knee-length office dresses, from a fresh graduate who have no significant experience in IT except for styling my own blog and don’t know for what reason (some say it’s due to the short mini skirt which i wore for interview) my boss decided to give me a chance as a Systems Analyst, to now an Assistant IT Manager – well, i never ever thought i would come this far and furthermore in an IT field. I truly want to thank, from the bottom of my heart, my boss, the senior management team, my teammates and fellow colleagues, for your recognition, guidance and support all these years. This time i’m sure it’s not because of any short mini skirt.

If I were to compare Day 1 I stepped into the company to now, i can say almost everything has changed. Things, processes, environment, people…basically every thing and especially the past 3 years ever since we were acquired. I won’t say that the changes have become for the better or for the worse as an overall, but it’s more of the way things are operated differently. I can say that everyone, including myself are adjusting to the change and trying very hard. Transition is never easy. There are many times i feel like giving up, but the senior management team never fail to catch me at the most appropriate time to provide me with the hope and listening ear. This i really appreciate.

I’m really devastated when the senior management team tendered their resignation one by one, they were the ones who founded and build the company from scratch, the ones whom i worked closely with and with respect. I knew they had a difficult decision to make, i still wish them the best and hope if there’s a chance, we can work together again.

Nevertheless, there have been thoughts, thoughts and ideas on my mind which i hope to fulfill, such as giving full attention and try a chance to run my own business to wild thoughts of travelling alone to a stranger country. Or maybe just take a break…

I’m back!

As if time just zoomed pass, the last post i blogged about was way back more than a year ago! I did log in once in a while and wanted to blog a post, but i don’t know where to start with. I’m also really surprised that there are still visitors to my blog everyday and even returning visitors. Whoever you are, thank you from the bottom of my heart! And guess which is my most “popular” post? It’s the post regarding My Hair Loss Problem! Seems like many people are experiencing hair loss huh! Just a little update on my hair loss, i have stopped going to Bee Choo Herbal Hair Treatment since last year. Not because it has lost it’s effect, but i feel my hair loss is at a cope-able level now. Now when i run through my hair, no hair drop anymore!

Just a quick update of my life recently, many things happened within the past 1 year, but i am much more looking forward to the upcoming months – important milestones such as keys collection to our BTO flat at the end of the month (yes! it’s completed after a long 3+ years wait!) and our wedding at the end of the year! Have been busy preparing for our wedding for the past 3 months – sourcing for venue, bridal and services, photoshoot and more, every thing was a great experience and i would love to post them up so i can refer back for memories as well as to provide you guys some useful tips which we learnt along the way.

After settling with the wedding preparations, we will be busy with the renovations of the house. Although our keys collection is just 1+ week away, we have not started sourcing for IDs nor contractors. We thought we should get the keys, step into the empty shell and visualize how the renovations should be before we engage any IDs or contractors. Anyway, we are not in a hurry to move in, so we shall take our own sweet time to build our love nest. 😉

I’ll definitely be back to blog more frequently on our wedding and renovation progress, promise!

Flea @ Lucky Plaza

This has got to be the worst flea i have ever participated in. Ever since the flea organizer moved from Scape to Lucky Plaza, we had no choice but to follow suit and business has not been as good as what we had at Scape. Heard that the lease is off between Scape and the organizer due to different concept and direction of the flea, Scape does not allow selling of preloved items anymore.

Well, it’s my fourth flea at Lucky Plaza and i can say that each experience is getting from bad to worse. Our very first flea at Lucky Plaza was on a Saturday and that time we complained about getting no crowd (as the flea was relatively new at Lucky Plaza, furthermore on a Level 6.) and business was really bad, we didn’t manage to cover our rental cost. Thereafter, we found out from other booth owners that Sunday’s business is very good due to the off days of our foreign helpers.

So we decided to give it a try again and booked our second flea at Lucky Plaza on a Sunday. Sunday’s business is definitely much better, however the crowd demographics were different from Scape. At Scape, there were more local young customers while at Lucky Plaza, there are more foreign adult ladies (as seen from photo below).

From what i observed, the customers at Scape do not mind paying for quality and pretty designs, while customers at Lucky Plaza are more cost-conscious and would not pay for items >$5. Therefore, your items have to be really cheap (dirt cheap literately) to attract them. Dresses sold at Scape for $8 – $10 can only be sold at Lucky Plaza for $5 max, with the need to entertain further bargains.

So why do i say that this time round’s flea was the worst? The time stated on the opening hours of the booth is 1pm – 7pm. However, when we reached the place at 11.30am, the place was already crowded. We realized that most of the space were rented out to permanent stall owners, which results in tiny little spaces in the middle for all the temporary booth owners. We managed to find an empty booth right in the middle after combing the entire place while lugging our luggage and squeezing through the crowds.

The booth space given to us was horrible. It was not even enough for us to open up a luggage to empty our goods, not to say bending down without bumping onto other booth’s table or people. Luckily we didn’t bring a rack, there won’t be any space to set it up anyway. I still can’t forget the scene when Jas tried to open up her luggage on the table to empty her goods, a whole gang of customers rounded up the table and some even helped Jas unzip her luggage to take them out. I was totally squeezed out of the table. LOL

You might guess that we must have earned quite some amount, but you are so wrong! Despite selling a portion of our clothes, we did not manage to or barely cover our rental cost. The skyrocketed rental cost is also one reason why we want to boycott the flea. Sunday’s rental cost is typically higher than other days due to the crowd and it has been on the rise. The previous time i came was on November last year, it was $100 per day, this time it has increased to $120 and i saw that the coming September’s Sunday slot has already increased to $130! Rental cost at Scape was only around $55 if i’m remembered correctly.

Imagine the high rental cost + low profit earned from customers (i don’t even know if the word profit is suitable here since a typical clothes is sold at an average of only $2) + minimal booth space, it seems like we are being squeezed dry by the organizer and customers for their maximum benefit. Not forgetting the stuffiness and dustiness of the place, some of us had to wear on masks!

If you ask me, i would say, stop wasting your time and effort, forget about having a flea here even if you just want to clear away your unwanted goods. The effort of travelling, lugging your goods to Lucky Plaza and staying in a small, stuffy and dusty place the whole day to exchange for a few penny is really not worth it.

By the way, if you happen to know of fleas at other places selling preloved items with good business, please do share with me!

Read my first flea experience at Scape

Read my second flea experience at Scape

14th storey and counting

Updates on my new flat:

28th June

Currently at 12th storey

Progress seems to have slowed down, supposed to be at 13th storey this month based on 1 storey completion every 2 weeks. Fellow neighbors speculate the slow progress due to haze. On another note, those completed blocks have started on painting!

26th July

Currently at 14th storey

Progress has slowed down, i guess it’s going to be 1 storey completion every month instead.

One of the block had their internal paintings completed, that’s really fast! Some of our neighbors are already starting to look for ID/Contractors for the renovation and exchanging quotation prices. *gasps*

We’re also finally “seen” on the map. Heard that there’s a bus stop right at our block, i hope it’s true, it will be soo convenient!