Changes for the better?

Since my last post on having thoughts of taking a break from work, many things has happened in just 5 months. Technically, I’m married (still can’t sink in the fact after being single for 27 years) and i’m really thankful that the wedding went well and it’s finally over, one less thing to worry about. We have also collected the keys to our BTO flat, it’s in the progress of renovation, hopefully it will be ready by CNY.

Another good news i would like to announce…I’m going to be a mum soon too! We wanted a goat baby so we decided to try conceiving exactly 3 months before our wedding date as we calculated that if we were to try only after wedding, with 9 months of pregnancy, we only have 3 months to try conceiving in order to get a goat baby and it doesn’t help when my menses are irregular which comes on average 2 months once. Although the pregnancy was pre-planned in a way, however, we did not expect to hit the jackpot on our very first try!

Maybe i’ll write on how we found out about the pregnancy in another post. The first 3 months of pregnancy is literately nightmare for me, feeling nauseous and vomiting almost everyday. I had appetite for nothing, i slept most of the time and feeling really weak. As a result of this, i took frequent MCs and leaves from work which i felt really guilty and stressed especially when i was just tasked to take over the whole department.

That period was crucial since it was reaching year end and as department head, I was responsible to plan for the department’s roadmap for 2015, KPIs, budget, headcount etc. Endless back to back meetings. I’m lucky and blessed to have competent managers whom i can rely on to get things done and with them, i managed to tied through the difficult period, although i believe i will perform better with better health conditions.

With the ever fast changing pace of the company and with deteriorating health conditions due to pregnancy symptom such as tiredness, i swear after a full day of work i’m mentally and physically drained. There are times where i felt 有心无力 and i get disappointed with myself for the deteriorating performance by which i do not meet my own expectations. 过得了别人但过不了自己这关。

Hubby mentioned about not being too stressed during pregnancy as it will affect the baby which both of us agreed that i should take a break. We had multiple talks, discussions and persuasions over this issue for few weeks and i’m glad to have a hubby who is able to understand, help me list out and analyze the situation clearly, assess our finance and points out the direction i should take, which is to resign from the company, but he lets me make the ultimate decision.

It’s really hard for me to make a decision and I get pissed with myself for being flicker minding, (just blame it on the pregnancy hormones) especially being in the company for 8 years with counts of personal achievements and milestones achieved together with the team but at the same time, i believe it is a sooner or later decision where it is time for me to go and get new life experiences, be it personal life or professional life. I have been deciding back and forth on this issue literately everyday – never came across anyone having so much difficulties resigning from a job.

Getting frustrated with myself from the daily ding-dongs, I told myself that i need to make a decision and never go back in circles again. Regardless of whether i will regret making the wrong choice, i need to make a decision to move on. After much weighing, I made the decision of tendering my resignation. I think i will need to write another post so to remind myself on the list of factors which results in my decision at that moment and not regret the choice i made. Keeping my fingers crossed for now.

Take a break?

Honestly, i have been hovering around this thinking recently a lot, like really A LOT.

Have been working in the same company for almost 8 years, i have definitely seen the company grow –  from a start-up to SME and now a MNC. The company has also seen me grow as a person and as a profession – from the long golden hair, loud Avril Lavigne -Girlfriend ringtone with short mini skirts ah lian to short dark toned hair, silent ringtone with decent knee-length office dresses, from a fresh graduate who have no significant experience in IT except for styling my own blog and don’t know for what reason (some say it’s due to the short mini skirt which i wore for interview) my boss decided to give me a chance as a Systems Analyst, to now an Assistant IT Manager – well, i never ever thought i would come this far and furthermore in an IT field. I truly want to thank, from the bottom of my heart, my boss, the senior management team, my teammates and fellow colleagues, for your recognition, guidance and support all these years. This time i’m sure it’s not because of any short mini skirt.

If I were to compare Day 1 I stepped into the company to now, i can say almost everything has changed. Things, processes, environment, people…basically every thing and especially the past 3 years ever since we were acquired. I won’t say that the changes have become for the better or for the worse as an overall, but it’s more of the way things are operated differently. I can say that everyone, including myself are adjusting to the change and trying very hard. Transition is never easy. There are many times i feel like giving up, but the senior management team never fail to catch me at the most appropriate time to provide me with the hope and listening ear. This i really appreciate.

I’m really devastated when the senior management team tendered their resignation one by one, they were the ones who founded and build the company from scratch, the ones whom i worked closely with and with respect. I knew they had a difficult decision to make, i still wish them the best and hope if there’s a chance, we can work together again.

Nevertheless, there have been thoughts, thoughts and ideas on my mind which i hope to fulfill, such as giving full attention and try a chance to run my own business to wild thoughts of travelling alone to a stranger country. Or maybe just take a break…

I’m back!

As if time just zoomed pass, the last post i blogged about was way back more than a year ago! I did log in once in a while and wanted to blog a post, but i don’t know where to start with. I’m also really surprised that there are still visitors to my blog everyday and even returning visitors. Whoever you are, thank you from the bottom of my heart! And guess which is my most “popular” post? It’s the post regarding My Hair Loss Problem! Seems like many people are experiencing hair loss huh! Just a little update on my hair loss, i have stopped going to Bee Choo Herbal Hair Treatment since last year. Not because it has lost it’s effect, but i feel my hair loss is at a cope-able level now. Now when i run through my hair, no hair drop anymore!

Just a quick update of my life recently, many things happened within the past 1 year, but i am much more looking forward to the upcoming months – important milestones such as keys collection to our BTO flat at the end of the month (yes! it’s completed after a long 3+ years wait!) and our wedding at the end of the year! Have been busy preparing for our wedding for the past 3 months – sourcing for venue, bridal and services, photoshoot and more, every thing was a great experience and i would love to post them up so i can refer back for memories as well as to provide you guys some useful tips which we learnt along the way.

After settling with the wedding preparations, we will be busy with the renovations of the house. Although our keys collection is just 1+ week away, we have not started sourcing for IDs nor contractors. We thought we should get the keys, step into the empty shell and visualize how the renovations should be before we engage any IDs or contractors. Anyway, we are not in a hurry to move in, so we shall take our own sweet time to build our love nest. 😉

I’ll definitely be back to blog more frequently on our wedding and renovation progress, promise!

2013 Resolutions

After reviewing my 2012 resolutions, I have a better idea of how to construct my 2013 resolutions. Less is more.

Here are some items which i hope to complete by end of the year:

1) Save 5K and to use it for taking up self improvement courses

If you have known, Love and I are working in the IT industry, so we are more technically inclined and ever since we started Love At Sg, designing is always our headache. So i’ll be exploring to attend some Adobe courses like Photoshop & Illustrator for a start.

Personally i’m interested in photography and since we have just bought the Olympus PEN mini, i think i should make full use of it’s functions by attending some basic photography course.

2) Start investing

That’s the only way (for me currently) to earn money at a faster rate. Enough said.

3) Taiwan trip with family (est. 6K)

Super looking forward to this trip, i’m sure my family members will love Taiwan as I do!

4) Personal & Parent’s health checkup

I’ve been postponing this health checkup for the longest time and i think it’s critical. Prevention is better than cure.

Can’t think of any more now, but if there’s any i’ll be back to fill them up. I’m going to keep the list to 5 or 6 max.

2012 Resolutions Review

To recap, below are the list of resolutions for 2012

1) Organize at least 1 mini flea / booth to sell away clothes and earn at least $100 profit

I actually had my first booth during May and second booth during Dec at Scape Level 4, earned more than $100 for both booths combined. I’m determined to carry on this flea next year as well as it gives me the chance to clear away my pre-loved clothes and purchase new ones!

2) Save up for 2013 lasik surgery (est. 5K)

Sad to say, i did not managed to save 5K this year 🙁

3) Travel to Bangkok with family (est. 2K)

First overseas holiday trip with the family, money well spent!

4) Launch website portal

After years of procrastination, Love and I managed to set up our own portal – Love At Sg, we hope we’ll have the determination to carry on our initiatives and be able to help like-minded couples in Singapore in a way or another.

5) Complete at least 5 books

I’m guilty of this resolution. If you say books, I definitely have bought 5 (or maybe more) but if you say read, I have only managed to complete 1. :X I’m restricting myself from purchasing anymore books until i have completed them. That’s hard as well okay. >.<

6) Provide family allowance of at least $250/month (est. 3K/yr)

I’m providing more than 2 times of the stated amount. Which is sort of linked to why i did not managed to meet my second resolution. :X

7) Personal + Parent’s health checkup
8) Flu Vaccine for family
9) Complete Hepatitis A vaccine course

Out of the 3 health resolutions, i only managed to complete one. But i did managed to start the course of cervical jab, which i’ll talk more about in another post.

5 out of 9 resolutions completed for year 2012. Not an impressive score but at least it did get my butt out to accomplish something. Maybe I shouldn’t be too greedy for 2013’s resolution list.